There is no greater agony, than bearing an untold story inside you.
Maya Angelou.

It has been six weeks since my last post. I sat at my dining table and wrote about those-we-have-not-yet-seen.html while I lovingly put a hand over my womb, carrying a new life that the world did not yet know about. That blog post was bittersweet, because it had rubbed raw the memories of the loss of our second baby. It was also healing to be able to feel the joy of a new baby inside me; this would be our fourth. 

Two weeks after that Monday morning that I posted here, we went in for our first ultrasound. 

Many times when I watch my son and daughter run and play, I see my third, a boy running along with them. I hear him laugh. I imagine him also hugging me when the two who live here on earth have their chubby arms round my neck. When I see families with three kids, there is an ache in my chest because I do have three children of my own; but one of them doesn't live with us. He lives with God.
In the April of 2015, I lost my second child through a miscarriage. I miss him inexplicably. 
If you haven't already, you can read about my story with him here: the-second-wave.html
In the last two months, several of my dear friends have lost children. I have mourned six miscarriages in these past eight weeks.

Mother's Day: A day when moms get to wake up, and do exactly what they did the day before. 

Hi everyone!
A lot of you are new here; I wanted to thank you so much for subscribing and joining The Orchid Blooms family. Karibuni :).
This past Sunday was Mother's Day and I was blessed with a beautiful surprise during an interview with Janet Mbugua, which you can watch here. I love a good surprise, but this one had me floored. My years as a mother have had many highs and a good deal of seriously low lows, so this interview and gift from my brother Isaac, were immensely precious. 

Hi guys.
The Orchid Blooms went on an extended Easter break, but we are back, and glad to be.
So, I've presented the biblical blueprint of the role of a woman in a marriage in the last few posts. Maybe you're wondering where I'm getting these opinions, these preposterous notions, these offensive ideologies.
​Well, here you have it. 

Hello my friends.

I want to share one more email I received from Debbie*(not her real name). Here are some excerpts.

-Our 5 year marriage has been a roller-coaster.
-I've felt unheard, ignored. He never consulted me.
-We had heated arguments, and went days without speaking to one another.
-He kept telling me how I wanted to become the 'man of the house'.
-We fought about everything! Especially in laws.